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I have been thinking a lot about what to write as my last blog of 2010. My first inclination was to title this entry with, “Fuck Off 2010” but although I still strongly agree with the sentiment, it seemed a tad negative. Just a tad. Then, I was thinking of reviewing all the reasons why this year sucked. The more I thought about that though, the more I realized that it wasn’t really necessary. Not only have many of you lovely, kind, patient people been reading all about my “Year of Suckage” regularly but to recapitulate all the things that went wrong in 2010 seemed too negative and useless. It reminded me of a metaphor I heard years ago. I’m probably going to tell it wrong so bear with me… but it went like this: If you’re drowning and you have a weight strapped to your ankle keeping you under water, you don’t want to know how much it weighs, you just want to know how to get the damn thing off so you can come up for air. To me, that metaphor (even as badly as I just relayed it) is why I ...

The Twelve Days of Infertility (Sung to the “Twelve Days of Christmas”) On the first day of Infertility, My true love sent to me A sperm count with great motility On the second day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Two OPK’s, And a sperm count with great motility On the third day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Three Gonal Pens, Two OPK’s, And a sperm count with great motility On the fourth day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Four Calling Doctors, Three Gonal Pens, Two OPK’s, And a sperm count with great motility On the fifth day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Five Clomid Pills, Four Calling Doctors, Three Gonal Pens, Two OPK’s, And a sperm count with great motility On the sixth day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Six follicles a-growing, Five Clomid Pills, Four Calling Doctors, Three Gonal Pens, Two OPK’s, And a sperm count with great motility On the seventh day of Infertility, My true love sent to me Seven embryos a-frozen, Six follicles a-growi...

I never had a pet growing up. My mom was never a fan of cats or dogs so in turn; no one in my house was allowed to have one. The closest I ever came to any kind of pet was the goldfish I won at a Fireman’s fair when I was eight years old. The fish died a week later and I quickly moved on. A few years ago, my landlord at the time was this lovely older woman named Mrs. Perez. She had a cat named Athena that had been with her through her divorce, the death of her nephew and her heart attack. Athena was a beautiful, friendly cat who I nicknamed “The Mayor” because she was often seen roaming the hallways checking in on the different tenants. Whenever I saw Athena in the hallway, she’d rub past my leg as her form of hello and I’d always smile, say hello back and then go about my business. I had lived there for about four years when I ran into Mrs. Perez in the lobby one day. I asked her how she was and she quickly dissolved into tears. She could barely manage to tell me that Athena had to be...

Recently, I came across a quote by Friedrich Nietzsche that read, “ Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs the torment of man.” My first reaction when reading this was, “ Wow. That Nietzsche! What a bummer! ” My second reaction was, “ Ummmm. He does sort of have a point. ” When struggling through any trying time, no matter the issue, hope is often what I cling to. I hope things work out exactly as I want them to and the promise of that happy ending keeps me going. Hope though, at least in my little fertility challenged brain, can often be confused with total belief and that is where things can get dangerous. I can hope things will work out but I have to remember that hope comes with no guarantees. Hope doesn’t even come with a warranty. I mention this because I’ve never been an optimist. For me, the glass isn’t just half empty -- it’s also filled with the entirely wrong beverage. That’s not to say that I’m a totally negative person. I just tend to prepare for the worst and more of...

Better the doctor you know than the doctor you don't Blood is thicker than cervical mucus Count your follicles Don't look a uterine polyp in the mouth Don't put all your eggs in one IVF Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man healthy, fertile and wise Every infertile has her day Every ovary has a silver lining Flattery will get you free injectables He who hesitates misses the ovulation window If the sperm won't come to the ovary, then the ovary must go to the mountain If you can't stand the hot flashes, stop taking hormones Implantation begins at home It takes two to procreate It's never too late to get a BFP Variety is the spice of your sex life It's no use crying over spilt cervical mucus It's the early bird that catches the egg Keep your cervix up Laugh and the world laughs with you, pee on a stick and you pee alone And for those of you who missed TTC Proverbs Part 1 and 2, they can be found here: http://the2weekwait.blogspot.com/2010/09/trying-to...